Today is World Suicide Prevention Day. Even as someone who has struggled with depression and anxiety, my mental health is somewhat of a mystery to me. Sometimes depression looks like isolating yourself from people for weeks or months. Sometimes it’s asking to stay the night at a friends house until you feel safe enough to …
Let’s start at the very beginning.
On August 26, 2014, I stepped foot into my counselor’s office for the first time. This wasn’t my first go around, but one size does not fit all when it comes to counseling. I tried again and I’m so thankful I did. Besides God, she’s been the one constant in my life over the last …
I see You.
Just gonna keep it real for a moment. I struggle every day with believing that I am wanted. That I am enough. That I am worthy. That I am loved. Every. Single. Day. It’s exhausting. Some days it’s easy to fight the lies. Other days, not so much. This morning I was driving to work, …
Unconditionally
For those of you who have followed my life the past 1-2 years, you know that I'm pretty much an open book. Check out this and/or this video if you don't know what I'm talking about. 😉 It's strange though, I can talk to you about my past depression, anger, abuse, shame, all day long. …
There’s an Oil for That
About six weeks ago, I decided to jump into the wonderful world of essential oils. I decided to go with Young Living and when people ask why YL, I like to start with Seed to Seal. If you don’t know, “essential oils are not regulated therefore companies can put any filler or additive into what …
Don’t Jump
It’s been a hard year. Between work, relationships, and my health, I’m exhausted. Back in January, I made my first trip of the year to Twin Falls for work. And all I wanted to do was jump off that wretched Perrine Bridge, standing 486 feet over the Snake River. Second trip, I wanted to jump. …
Fight for me.
“Is there anything I can do to help?” I hate that question. Because the answer isn't simple. Because I hate asking for help. Because the last time I answered it, I didn't think I was asking for much, but that individual thought it was too much. So, I struggle to be honest now. I tell …
How are you?
What if, just once, we answer that question with the truth? What happens when someone says, "I'm having a terrible day?" What if we show them l o v e instead of straying away? I'm good. I'm fine. I'm alright. [I'm lying.] Maybe they don't need much. Maybe all they …
24.
There are a million and one of these lists out there, but I want to share what has helped me. It’s a mix of all of these that help keep me going during those dark times. I’m also not perfect and fail in these too. I’ve had a hard few weeks, and thinking about this …
The Light is Always There
I’ve been struggling the past few weeks. One little email, phone call, or snowflake can lead to a mental breakdown. I’m probably stressing out over nothing. But I haven’t quite figured out how to convince myself of that...yet. The weather isn’t helping. Normally I walk to work, and if the weather is bad I do …
