It’s Okay to Not Be Okay

I feel like I get asked what I do with my days off quite a bit, mainly what I do on Tuesdays.
When you work for the church, Sunday becomes a work day, so you get a random day off in the middle of the week. It can be hard to not have two days off in a row, but I love being out and about in the middle of the week. That’s the introvert in me, enjoying fewer crowds. 😉

So, what do I do?

Sometimes I run.
Sometimes I hike.
Trips to Panera happen quite often.
I love Guru Donuts.
Target and I are best friends.
Sometimes I volunteer at Speak Your Silence.
There is always a plethora of chores and errands to be done.
All the teeth cleanings, doctor checkups, etc. get thrown in there.

But there is something I have done that I tend to leave out of conversations.

Basically every Tuesday, since August 2014, I have spent an hour of my day off with my counselor.

This is my second round. My first one, while she was great, did not work out. After a few months of realizing that I was still not okay, I found my current one.

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She’s pretty great. 🙂
[You can ask my co-workers. They get the lowdown on Wednesday at our staff meeting
. . .And other random times during the week. #sorrynotsorry]

Today, I sit here writing this, and for the first time in many, many months, I have nothing planned for today. I’ve been seeing her every other week recently, and I’m even trying for three weeks in between sessions.
And I feel GREAT.
I got my nails did [okay, that was kind of planned]. I worked on an application. Now I’m in the middle of my favorite past time, sitting in a coffee shop in Downtown Boise, writing, reading, and just enjoying life.

I hate the stigma behind mental health, how people feel like they can’t speak up about depression, anxiety, etc.
How is it any different than getting the flu or cancer or breaking a bone?
It’s not.

So, I’m here to tell you that if you are struggling, you are not alone.
It’s okay to not be okay.
It’s okay to seek help.
Asking for help does not mean that you are weak.

If you don’t know where to begin, shoot me a message and I can give you references to a few places here in Boise and Meridian.
Your secret will be safe with me.
If you do decide to find help, remember that one size does NOT fit all.
My advice to you would be to stick it out for a few sessions.
If it doesn’t work out, that is okay.
Also, do not force yourself to go.
You have to want to go; you have to be ready.

I hope you all have a wonderful week and know that you are loved. 🙂

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