Today is World Suicide Prevention Day.
Even as someone who has struggled with depression and anxiety, my mental health is somewhat of a mystery to me.
Sometimes depression looks like isolating yourself from people for weeks or months.
Sometimes it’s asking to stay the night at a friends house until you feel safe enough to be alone.
Sometimes it’s working two jobs, going to school full time, and being involved in extra curricular activities.
Sometimes it’s doing nothing except watch Netflix for a week straight.
Sometimes it’s watching the dishes and laundry pile up.
Sometimes it’s cleaning until there is nothing else to clean.
Sometimes it’s walking around Target for hours to distract yourself.
Sometimes it’s screaming into a pillow as you let the thoughts take over.
So, what can you do?
Well, I hate when people ask me that.
You can read a little bit about that here.
I do think it’s super important that everyone takes a class on Suicide Prevention or somehow educate yourself on signs and what you can do to help. But I also know that depression looks different on everyone.
Don’t be afraid to ask the hard questions like, “Do you have a plan?” Or “Have you hurt yourself?” Just do it. Please.
Know that we all treat our mental health differently. Some medicate. Some go to counseling. Some turn to diet and exercise. Some turn to meditation. We do what’s best for us.
While I am grateful for those who have told me that I’m always welcome to stop by or call and chat, sometimes I need you to break down walls and crash into my life. Because some days I literally can’t get out of bed. So, you asking me to come over doesn’t always work.
Always, always remember that you have no idea what kind of battle your friends are fighting inside. Honestly, it’s amazing the amount of times people have said to me how happy I seem, when on the inside it’s so, so dark.
Friends, it’s okay to not be okay.
And I want you to know that you are not alone.
You are loved. ❤
Suicide Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255
To Write Love On Her Arms:
If you have been affected by sexual abuse and assault and need counseling, check out Speak Your Silence:
“Tonight doesn’t always keep its promises, but tomorrow has potential… Tomorrow is a place where things can be handled and coffee can be made and you can have your favorite dinner. Tomorrow is a place where we can figure out a better way to cope with living and tomorrow is a place where, one day, we won’t be coping – we’ll be living.”