alarm chirps. i slept through the night. be still. all is calm. inversion. i turn on the sun. a peaceful morning. out the door i go. i see a familiar face. we talk. and just like that, i feel it coming. my mind races. my heart is pounding. alone in a crowded room. the constant …
Staring at Computer Screens
I am a firm believer in taking mental health days. It shouldn't be any different than calling in sick because you have the flu. That being said, I have never taken one, although, I've had my days where I probably should have. At work on those days, most of the time I found myself staring …
Thankful for 2016.
I’m sitting here trying to find the words to describe 2016. Life-changing. Healing. Forgiving. Hey look! I found words. 🙂 --- At the beginning of this year, I was a little lost. I was in a dark place. I was starting to think that I would never get out of it. So, I finally did …
Tired, but Thankful.
I was up late last night. This morning was an early one. But as I was sitting there last night thinking of how tired I was, I suddenly became very thankful. I’m tired. No longer is that secret for, “I’m depressed and hate everything about life.” I’m just tired. Because I worked. Because I’ve been …
It’s Okay to Not Be Okay
I feel like I get asked what I do with my days off quite a bit, mainly what I do on Tuesdays. When you work for the church, Sunday becomes a work day, so you get a random day off in the middle of the week. It can be hard to not have two days …
He Won’t Give Up
It was one week ago that I was sitting in the Santa Cruz mountains, soaking up the love of God. Now, here I am in my favorite coffee shop, drinking chai, songs from the retreat on repeat. I still feel like I’m on that “high” you get after being on retreat and I wonder how …
Caritas 41
This is a story about what can happen when you decide to stop loving God. . . . . . so that you can let Him love you. This past weekend I had the opportunity to go on a Caritas Retreat near Santa Cruz, California. I wanted to share a little bit about what I …
He makes me lie down.
These past few days have gone a little different than I had hoped for. I was supposed to be in California right now on retreat. Thursday morning, about 3:30, I had a rude awakening. The room was violently spinning, I was extremely hot, and I wanted to vomit. I managed to adjust my head so …
Masks
Halloween and the masks come on. But for some individuals, they always have a mask on. They cover up invisible illnesses. For many, these masks take weeks, months, or even years to be ripped off. Until that happens, individuals all around you continue to play the part of someone else. Because that is why masks were …
“Find rest, my soul…
...put your hope in God." Tonight, as I jumped on I-84 to head back to Boise from Nampa, I found myself looking right at this big, beautiful moon rising over the mountains. I felt at peace. I had been thinking over my conversations I had today. They all seemed to have a common theme of …
